i wish i had gotten around to writing sometime in the last four months. When it was so good. this tops that boy i thought i was in love with.. + this is without ecstacy! I'm not saying it's not good. It is.. I love him- more than anything else (except Lizzy). But I'm scared things are going downhill so fast that we don't even realize it. We can't stay sober together. I know it won't happen. Wow, we really fucked ourselves over on that one. +it was my fault